I talked to Eric today. It was good. We talked for two hours. He really wants me when he can't have me. I do appreciate his friendship and getting to see his good side. I want the good side. I don't want the rest. What do I want? Peace and detachment. I want to tread lightly.

I wish I remembered the poem about just this. It is about not holding on too tightly to anything in life. It is all ephemeral and impermanent. Eric is a jerk, and then he is nice because he wants me back. I don't think it is on purpose. It is a cycle. I can hold on lightly and let him visit and work around him. I enjoy his presence.

Things I am looking forward to: The weekend! Friday night is Kelly's birthday, and we are having a FaceTime chat together. Saturday lunchtime, I am celebrating Jenny's birthday. Saturday night, Anita is coming over for dinner and bringing cheesecake. Also, on Thursday, I am having lunch with Stacy Hopkins at Luciana's. So many good friends who support me. I am so fortunate!

Today, I talked to Judy and Corrinna on the phone too. They both hold me close and give me good advice. Yesterday, I talked to Carrie and Den. Blessed with friends is what I am.

I feel like there is a lot else I want to say. Eric says we can be friends and that we love each other so much that we will find a way to make our relationship work. I am holding on lightly. That would be beautiful, but not necessarily likely. I need to go out into the world and meet new people. I like people. I could go to the Unitarian church. I could join a hiking club. There are lots of things I am interested in. I want to be included. I like being part of a group.

I have noticed that the right hand has more typing work than the left hand. Typing is like playing the piano; you have to make sure that both hands are working in unison.

Some writing days are not as good as others. I am getting the thoughts down on paper, and I am taking time for myself when I need care. I took time to talk to people today because that is what I needed. The dishes got done anyway.

That is all for today!