Two days without writing! Friday and Saturday. What happened? Friday night, I went out to eat with Stacy at the Thai restaurant. On Saturday, I went shopping, celebrated Becky's birthday, and then Eric arrived in the evening.

Now Eric is upstairs reading and does not want to come for a walk with me. He went upstairs because he could not concentrate with me around. I don't like that we have to do what he likes and not what I like. By only following his own feelings, I am excluded from deciding what the day will be like. I want to plan together. I asked him if he would go for a walk in an hour and a half, and he said yes. The time comes, and he is enjoying his time reading a book. I don't think that is right. I think that he should sometimes do things he is not in the mood for just because it is something I want to do. No less than for the fact that I ask him to do things he wants to do anyway. He can read his book anytime, but he cannot go for walks with me anytime. I feel bad and I feel sad. Yes, he decided to fix my radio for me, but I didn't want him to. I didn't want him to get burned out and then have to be alone. It makes me so angry! I don’t need him to do things for me. I need him to spend time with me.